An unlocking hug

Its been a while since I last posted something. I didn't feel I had anything extraordinary to write, so I chose nothing instetad of anything. Nonetheless, here I am in my mostly empty apartment, excited and nervous about the next step in my life. The movers came yesterday to take all of my belongings to Venice Beach, California. When people ask me why I am moving, I usually tell them its because of the weather, that I'm done with NYC winters. Or I tell them its because some of my best friends have moved out there, or because it's been something I've always wanted to do, or simply because I CAN. And the answer is a complete combination of all of those reasons, plus one or two others as well.

This is something I have always envisioned having the time, resources, and life situation to accomplish, and now I am in that position.

It's an interesting paradox I am experiencing. I am very excited about my move and whats to come. And at the same time, I feel oddly numb to it all. I liken it to thunder and lightening. The lightening has struck. The choices made, the bags packed and shipped, the details are in place. Now I'm just waiting for the thunder, my feelings/emotions, to catch up to the rest of me.

I ran into someone on the street yesterday while running an errand. She is someone I don't know very well, other than she has been in a personal development class with me over the last few months so at times we have seen deeper parts of each other most don't get to see on a daily basis. When I saw her she gave me the biggest hug and we went on our separate ways. That loving hug opened up a lot of emotions for me. It was as if they had been bottled up for a while and that magical hug unlocked the room where they had been hiding. And the emotions that came out? Pure joy and happiness. I was smilling from ear to ear. Laughing out loud. I even had an out loud "woo hoo" moment. I was aglow my entire walk home. It was so wonderful. It looks like the thunder is catching up to me after all!